Monday, June 14, 2010

With heavy hearts.....

This morning Aaron and I welcomed three beautiful baby boys into this world, however, their arrival came too early for them to survive much more than a few hours with us.

Charles (Charlie) Monroe Mueller was born at 6:45 this morning. His brothers Calvin (Cal) Joseph Mueller and Harold (Harry) Chris Mueller arrived at 10:45 am and 10:50 am. Charlie and Harry were with us for nearly two hours while Cal hung on for 30 minutes.

The boys were born at 23 weeks - 3 days on the morning of June 14th; we did not intervene and they died peacefully in our arms. They were all perfectly healthy and beautiful - just born too soon to have a fair chance.

Kellie should be leaving the hospital sometime in the morning to head home. We will post more about the pregnancy and the events leading up to their birth as the week goes on. Any thoughts or comments can be posted on this site - we will be checking it often. Right now we are heart broken and we need our privacy. We appreciate all the love and support of our friends and family.

48 comments:

  1. So very sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you at this difficult time.
    Tia Calhoun

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  2. Kellie and Aaron I am so sorry to hear of your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. You now have three very special little angels watching over you. Heidi Porch

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  3. I am so very sorry for your losses. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Please take care of yourselves.
    Christie Whiting

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  4. Kellie and Aaron - I am sorry to hear of your loss. My thoughts and prayers will be with you! - Jessie (Vruno) Whelan

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  5. Diana and I have not stopped thinking about you since we heard the news. We are in tears thinking about what you and your family must be going through. Your boys will always be with you. You two are so strong. I know that your three beautiful boys Charles, Calvin and Harold are playing in heaven with our son Blaise. You are both amazing people...and amazing parents.

    Love,
    Nick, Diana and Adrian Dibble

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  6. Deepest thoughts and prayers... <3 Lindsey Lehmkuhl

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  7. Kellie, You're in my thoughts and prayers. I'll never forget your kindness when I went through my situation. Peace and love. Jane

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  8. We are so sorry to hear this, I can't imagine what you are going through. I hope you can take some comfort in knowing your family and friends are thinking of you all. Please let us know if there is anything we can do to help. We'll be in touch.
    Hugs,
    Broc, Laura, Ava, and Taya

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  9. I am so sorry to hear about your loss. It is such a difficult time. I was so glad to read you were able to hold them and meet them. 3 sweet angels in heaven now watch from above. Please feel comfort in knowing you have friends and family praying for you. I'm sure they have given you information on organizations to help in comforting you all. One I'm familiar with is I.R.I.S. another fabulous organization out of Faribault.
    You are all in my thoughts, Ellen Trotman

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  10. We are so sorry for your losses, Kellie and family. I am sure your sons were beautiful and you gave them each such strong, beautiful names to take with them into God's loving arms. My continued thoughts and prayers are with you and your family as you go through this very difficult time.
    Missy Swarts and family

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  11. So sorry to hear of your losses. I can't imagine what you are going through, but have faith and know that God had a plan for them. I'm glad you got to meet them. You are in my thoughts.
    Kelly Utesch

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  12. Those boys are in your hearts forever! <3 stay strong as these days months and years will be difficult. As a family you will stay strong. With all the friends on the side you will stay stronger. My heart goes out to you and your family. May peace be with you and the boys. They say the baby boys were here for a short time but they will stay in your hearts forever!!!!

    Dawn (Whiting) Quinn

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  13. You are in our thoughts and prayers.

    With love,
    Mike Stork & family

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  14. Kellie and Aaron...my heart is heavy for you and your families today. Your boys, with amazing names by the way, are blessed to have you as parents and get to keep Grandma Jean entertained in heaven now. I love you both and have you in my prayers.
    Randi Finley

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  15. Kellie and Aaron and families~ So very sorry to hear of your incredibly sad day. Your beautiful boys were in your arms for a brief time and felt the love you had for them. Prayers for you that you can find peace knowing that they are now in God's arms and He will surely love them dearly and they will always know your love for them. Peace, Jody Steffl

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  16. So crushed to hear about your loss. I am praying that God's peace keep you and comfort you in this time - you are in our prayers. God bless you all. -Steph Rech

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  17. Aaron and Kellie I am so, so sorry and heart broken for you guys. I know sometimes these things are very hard to understand and comprehend. It is a blessing to know you now have three beautiful little angels watching over you. Please let us know if there is anything we can do to help out. We are thinking about you every minute. We love you guys. Kim, Ryan, and Elle

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  18. Kellie, Aaron and John,
    Greg and I are so sorry for the loss of your boys. We will keep all six of you in our thoughts and prayers.
    Much love, Sarah and Greg Leslie

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  19. Your family is in our prayers. You two and John are very special people and we are thinking of you guys a lot.

    The Bensons

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  20. Kellie and Aaron,
    We are so saddened by the news of your boys. I can't even imagine the huge lose you are feeling but knowing you both, you are strong and will get thru it. The time you had with your boys will forever and always be in you heart and mind. May God guide you in the right path to help you thru this difficult time. Thinking of you and our prayers are with you.
    Love you,
    Jeremy, Sheree Nelson and Family

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  21. So sorry to hear of your loss. We are thinking of you and will keep you in our thoughts and prayers.
    Sincerely,
    The Fahrendholz family

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  22. Kellie, Aaron and John,
    We are heartbroken to hear of your tremendous loss. May faith, family and friends bring you comfort and peace as you navigate through this difficult time.

    Anything you need, we're here for you.
    Much love,
    Rach & Ty

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  23. Aaron and Kellie, we are so very sorry for your loss... At a time like this words seem so inadequate. Hold tight to each other, to John, and to the moments you shared with your littlest of angels. Yesterday, Lukie said to me out of the blue... "Mommy when I die I want you to know that I will be able to see you from heaven, even if you can't see me...and I will be giving you hugs even if you can't feel them..." Paul and I were stunned by his words and thought perhaps it was a message from our Nicholas but now we think that perhaps those words were somehow meant for you... We are here for you and holding you and your beautiful family close to our hearts.

    All our Love,
    Paul, Magaly and Lucas

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  24. Aaron and Kellie-
    We are so saddened to hear about your losses. Our hearts break for you as you cope with the loss of your three little boys. Please know that you are in our thoughts and prayers.
    Dave, Sarah, Ella and Jack Logan

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  25. Kellie and Aaron,
    With heavy hearts we send our thoughts and prayers. Your angels are up with God & will greet you one day in paradise.
    Hugs,
    Riley, Laurie, Kieran, Kellan, and Baia

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  26. I am so sorry to hear about this loss. You are such a special family - know that all of you are surrounded with prayers and love during this time.
    My very deepest sympathy,
    Kate (+Dennis+Wes)

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  27. Dear Aaron and Kellie,
    While accessing the internet this evening, I read an email sent out by the Hudson United Methodist prayer chain that brought with it a deep sadness. Although we may never have met, your heart breaking loss of Charlie, Cal and Harry has greatly affected me and others gathered at the Wisconsin Annual Conference. There are no words to write except to let you know that many here in Lacrosse Wisconsin are now holding you and all who love you in our hearts and prayers.
    May God bring you comfort in the valley of death’s shadow.
    Pastor Bruce Stunkard

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  28. We are so very, very sorry for your loss of your 3 beautiful little boys. Please know that we are praying for you and your family.
    Don and Teresa Morris

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  29. I m so sorry to hear about your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. May God comfort you in these difficult days. -Jodi Jacobson

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  30. Josh and I were heartbroken when we heard the news about your sons. I cannot seem to find the words to adequately express how sorry we are for your loss. Our thoughts are with your family.

    Josh, Emily, and Charlotte Bishman

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  31. Kellie and Aaron,

    My heart breaks for you both as you mourn the loss of your sons. I am so grateful to hear that you were able to welcome them into the world and hold them in your arms if only to say goodbye too soon. My husband and I loss twin boys in Feb 2008 and those are the moments that we continue to cherish.

    Carol Sparks

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  32. Dear Kellie and Aaron-
    With aching hearts we are so very sorry to hear of your news. Our deepest sympathy rests in thoughts and prayers for you and the family. May your angels light the way to peace.

    Sincerely,
    Lisa Derby-Olejar, Mark, and kids

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  33. Kellie and Aaron,
    We are so sorry to hear of your loss. Our thoughts and prayers are with you and will surround you in the days and weeks to come.
    Love,
    Ron and Pam Ketchem, and family

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  34. Kellie,

    My deepest sympathy. I cannot imagine what you are feeling. I hope you have a good support system. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

    Sincerely,

    Lori Buchheim

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  35. Kellie and Aaron,
    I am so so sorry for your loss. You are in my thoughts and prayers. I know this is more painful than I can imagine. I hope there is some measure of joy that your three little boys are playing togther in heaven...completely healthy and without complication. I encourage you to lean into God during the difficult journey ahead. He loves you. I also invite you to check out the resources listed at my friends' website, who also experienced indescribable grief. http://www.thearnspergers.com/grief.html

    Love,
    Kristin Cooper Hammett
    (Bob & Cara Cooper's daugther)

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  36. Kellie and Aaron,

    As you walk this journey together, know that the nurturing Spirit of God walks with you. Be assured that God is weeping too. You are not alone! May you find comfort in the arms of the same God that shouldered the weight of the world.

    Praying for you,

    Jill Fisk
    (Fred & Jeanie Parsons' daughter)

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  37. What wonderful names your little boys were given. I'm so sorry you won't be able to see them grow up and into them...to see the men they would become.

    I hope you are physically well Kellie.

    All my best...Julia Briese

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  38. dear Kellie, Aaron, & John We weep with you for your loss and will always remember your 3 dear sons who laid in your arms and knew their parents' love. The love they experienced is a love that is as pure as any child could ever desire. You have touched our hearts and pray with you. We love you--Uncle Ben and Lola.

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  39. Kellie and Aaron,

    I am so sorry to here about your terrible loss. I can not imagine what you must be going through right now. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

    Katie Prochniak

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  40. Words cannot express how sorry we were to hear this news, know that you will find strength in Him to make it through this tragic loss. My heart aches for you and your family, and we are praying for you and those beautiful babies. We love you dearly.....

    Leslie, Isaac, and Ava

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  41. Dear Kellie and Aaron,

    We are so very sorry.

    Sincerely,
    Donna and Drew Sullivan

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  42. We are thinking and praying for you,
    Jeremy and Megan

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  43. Kellie and Aaron,
    We wish to pass along our deepest sympathy to you during this difficult time. You'll be in our thoughts and prayers.
    Andy and the girls

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  44. Hello Aaron.
    I am so sorry for your loss. I want to thank you for the mentorship role you have played in Nick and my summer. I know this is a hard time for you. If there's anything we can do, please let us know.
    Hayley

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  45. Kellie and Aaron,
    I am so, so sorry ... I am lost for words. My heart is breaking for you and Aaron. I do know that you have 3 beautiful little angels watching over you. You and Aaron are in our thoughts and prayers.

    Robin & Ray

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  46. Aaron and Kellie:

    On behalf of the physicians and staff at The Orthopaedic & Fracture Clinic, we want to extend our deepest sympathy to your family. We will keep you close in our prayers.

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  47. Aaron and Kellie,
    I am so sorry that something this tragic has happened to you and your family. I will keep you in my thoughs and prayers.

    Jenessa Hall

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  48. Aaron and Kellie,

    I have started this message to you both at least five times, each time, deciding that my words weren't adequate and didn't convey how profoundly saddened I was and am to learn of your great loss. I've finally come to the conclusion that I might not ever find the perfect thing to say to you both...and maybe that's ok.
    Your love for each other is truly obvious.
    In the time I've known Aaron, whenever he talks about "Kellie," his eyes brighten, and even through his OR mask I can always tell he is smiling. Aaron kept he babies' ultrasound pictures readily available for him to share at a moment's notice...along with Jon's and yours....and just last week, he proudly shared a beautiful picture of you, Kellie, as you carried them.

    Please know that you both, along with your families, are in my heart, and have been in my thoughts and prayers. The courage, strength and love you have for each other is an amazing thing to witness. Your baby boys were truly blessed with beautiful parents and a beautiful family, however briefly they were here.
    Thank you for graciously sharing a small part of this heartbreaking moment in your lives through this site. In my heart I believe and find comfort in the faith that loved ones passed, including our beloved Andrew, is up in heaven taking good care and keeping a watchful eye on your baby boys.

    I am so sorry for your loss.
    JodySelberg

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